Day 4

Getting Naked.

I cringe every time I walk by the "before" picture I have taped up on my fridge (it's a lovely, full-color 8x10). The photo itself isn't the worst of it; I can simply look in a mirror to see what I look like naked. I cringe more so at the fact that now all of you know what I look like naked. And I don't even know who "all of you" are. 

A couple people have said recently how "great" I look, and how I "don't even need to lose weight." Lovely sentiment. Appreciated. But overall, ignored. Just like most people, I have parts of my body I cannot stand. I hate the pooch in my tummy, the saddlebags around my hips and the lack of separation in between my things. To this, some might say, "love your body, embrace your figure, accept who you are." I'm sure there are people out there who will listen to that and go on to have glorious, fulfilling lives. I'm just not one of those people. 

I'm pretty much sick of feeling fat. Side note: If I get one comment about how I'm not fat, I'm going to punch a baby. I didn't say I am sick of being fat, I said I am sick of feeling fat. So sick of it, in fact, that I've decided to actually do something about it. I got naked in front of a bunch of strangers on the internet. 

The question is, WHY?

Obviously not to show off.

I stripped down and started writing so there would be no backing out. The truth is, I've tried to lose this weight for years. But I quit every time. I just haven't been able to hold myself accountable. That's where you guys come in. Every person who tracks my progress holds me accountable. If I quit, you know. 

Imagine if you told every person you know (i.e. your facebook account) that you were doing something. Imagine you reminded them every day that you were doing it and kept them updated on your progress. Then, imagine just giving up one day. Imagine letting down all the people you had inspired. Imagine accepting failure, simply for lack of trying, in front of everyone. I couldn't do it. Could you?

Have a goal? Get naked! Spread the word! You don't have to motivate yourself, let peer pressure do the motivating for you! It works, and once you swallow your pride, it's actually pretty fun.

Current weight: 132.5